a day in the life of a pool shark.
ex.someone who is forced to the boundaries to watch others live their lives, and this feels unnatural for him/ her.
isolated, alone from the rest. forced to watch everyone from the sidelines.
i was a loner, i enjoyed being with others but i never felt i was truly there it was almost an experiment for me to learn how to be the person they want me to be. so for instance i watched how people reacted with me if i acted myself and not many people have ended up seeing the real me because of the reaction i got.
so i worked it out.
you have the story tellers
the know it alls
and there are many more but those are the basics of my ‘friend group’.
i have been able to fulfill all these roles naturally and without any question from the others. i have been able to change my mannerisms and my attitude, my belief system. just to see the ripple effect that it makes.
don’t get me wrong i would never do anything to hurt these people or cause any fights between them.
i wouldn’t be able to.
you see, i am a pool shark. i am on the outside i am only contacted randomly but people just expect me to be there. i am talking of are meeting point once a week at the same place same time all of us.
i am never contacted by people that consider me their friend, but i think they made it very clear what type of people they are. well, at least i can see who they are.
they pretend, they bitch, they lie about their own feelings in hope that none will find them out. the talk about the latest stuff and how they have to have it while someone sits in the corner away from the group with the know-it-all. the know it all thinks it’s a comforter but it is intelligent it just says everything bluntly and has a hint of narcissism to it.
i as a pool shark someone will reach so far past the boundaries that i will be forced back into the little corner i came from, and they are shouting and screaming you don’t belong here, with us. you are nothing like us.
you are nothing, compared to us.